Is this really my life?

Someone please pinch me! I can't believe what has changed in my life in so few weeks. I am feeling like a rockstar! I have energy... I do cardio 5 days a week (and can actually do it ). I am more relaxed and less stressed. It dawned on me the other day the amount of stress I had everyday with the pressure of what I was going to eat and how much weight I was going to gain!! I don't have to worry anymore. I know that I want to eat as much protein as I can and that's the end of that. No more battling if I should or should not eat something. I now have that control. Also another weird thing has happened....if you know me well you know that I chew the heck out of my nails....well I can't anymore because my nails are so strong from how healthy my body is becoming!!! Anyway down to the results...I have lost 20 lbs in 4 weeks. I am pretty excited and I am just starting my journey....can't wait to see what the future holds...but for now I want to enjoy my life and gods many gifts he has given us each and every day.

Post Operation Update

Wow!! Things have been so busy for me that I haven't even had a chance to post what has happened with the surgery. Well here are some updates....Day 1 of the surgery was hmmmm just like any surgery someone would get. I actually was going to chicken out that morning and really wanted to cancel...but once they gave me that Valium I was ready to go! Last I knew I was waking up next to some annoying woman saying wake up wake up wake up wake up....it started to really tic me off. Anyway they brought me to my room where my lovely mate awaited me(Bart)..hahaha. I ate my first meal of broth and water. Next I knew the doctor was discharging me because I was up and walking around by myself. So day 3 was the hardest and I thought I was going to die! I couldn't keep a thing in my body!! Nothing! I couldn't eat the shakes or drink any water or keep it in. I thought I was going to dehydrate and I was really weak so all I could do was lay in bed.. I thought I was going to die from a blood clot. It was a crazy day! I called the doc and they said this was normal and to do the best that I can to get everything in me. Well now here we are day 15 and I am down 13lbs and I am walking between 15-30 minutes a day because that is all that I am allowed for now. What do I eat you say.......well I drink 2-3 protein shakes a day 1 for breakfast, then I have either soup (high in protein) or slice of deli chicken breast and a slice of cheese that I can barely eat, then shake number 2, then for dinner I eat what ever protein is on the menu...I skip the bad carbs that will be a waste since I can only eat a 1/4 cup of anything at one time, then last I try to have another protein shake or yogurt or something like that. So I am eating normal except in majorly small quantities. The first and second week I was pretty freaked out and kinda in shock of what I had done...it seemed a little barbaric that I had my stomach cut out
...but now I am over that and feeling fantastic!! I feel like I have been given a second chance at health and a tool that I can work with to lose weight as before nothing would work unless it was some sort of dietetic. Welp that's it folks! Hope ya'll enjoy your weekend!

I am not proofing this...so please ignore anything weird!

My last meal

Well....today is the last day I will ever be able to eat whatever I want....I am so happy about this as food is my demon and it will no longer control me after Friday. I am still trying to figure out what my stress outlet is going to be. I am hoping that something like yoga or exercising will replace it....fingers crossed. Oh and happy hump day! For those of you that know me....you will understand the pics I have posted for this blog :)

Post-op appt today

Well....it has officially set in...I will be having surgery on Friday at 9:15am. I will arrive at the hospital at 7am and immediately upon arrival i will be given a Valium ....and before I know it ....it will be all done and I will be ready to go home in the same day. I was supposed to sleep over but I guess if things go well I won't have to.

We went over everything at this appt. I will be taking extra vitamins for the rest of my life and no more aspirin ever.

I am excited and nervous at the same time and hope that I am making the right decision.

Here is a picture of everything that I have to eat for the next week and my monthly vitamins. YUM!!!

Well until next time...happy eating people!

What makes me eat?

This is something that I have finally discovered through my process of getting approved for surgery.....nope not through a therapist (which I had seen for years and we could never figure out my eating habits). I eat when I am stressed and if you know me....you know I am a very dramatic person and I stress myself out a lot. I am passionate in everything I do and to everyone that is in my life. I play hard and love hard. I do my best to protect everyone I love(even though they think I am evil). So naturally I will be stressed at the littlest things and my outlet is eating ......ohhhhh how eating makes me feel sooooooooo fabulous at the time
I am devouring wings and pizza. Now that I have discovered this I am going to have to find new outlets......hmmmm what to do?

My First Post

So here is my first post! This is my weight loss journey with the gastric sleeve.

A little background info:
I am 35 years old with 2 children- ages 3 months and 5 years. All my life I have battled with my weight. There was a point in my life where I lost a lot of weight due to being on adderall, smoking, and drinking tons of coffee. If you could say addiction I would concur. I lead a very unhealthy lifestyle. I have decided to go down another route for a healthier life. The Gastric Sleeve. I found out on Friday, February 15th, 2013 that I have been approved by my insurance company to get the Gastric Sleeve surgery. My surgery date is Friday, March 1st, 2013. I am beyond excited and I am looking forward to a healthier life with myself and my family. This blog has been created to record my feelings as I start this new chapter of my life. I feel like I have been given another chance at health and I want to remember it for ever. I hope you enjoy the ride.

Age:35
Height: 5'1"
Weight: 219
Surgery Date: 3/1/2013